Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I navigate myself to Missing You

It so annoying to have a flu, cough and fever at a time.
I want to tell my mom, but I don't like she will be worried too much.
But it still okay if your close friend still ask you kinda question like this :
"kau tak sihat ke Ej ?" -Thanks Lyka. I love you as big as my tummy size it is ;)

I'm truly admit, when I don't have any kind of fever, the equation goes like this
 (Me = Hot temper + ego)
When i'm with any kind of fever, the equation be like this
(Me = pampering myself with temper + too ego to digest with) 
Bad huh ?
Don't tell. I know.

So here, I'm sorry for being dick head at anyone.
That not me, that was me actually. 
Again, SORRY.

Nobody can't handle it.
I know.
Nobody deserve me when i'm have it.
I know.
Even I, me and myself can't accept that.
I know.
End with that.

I'm always forget what a good thing I've done.
Either i'm not doing nothing or just it actually nothing if i remember.  
I'm kinda fail to talk with someone who always keep tracking what a good thing they have done and ofkos, they keep reminds me.

I do remember it, but i don't like anyone reminds it for me.
Because ;
I feel so down and shame with myself when you reminds me.
I feel like a loser when you reminds me.
I feel give up to stay with you when you keep reminds me.
I feel i don't deserve you for what you've done.
I feel so down for what i can't make it for you.

Sometimes, when you don't get satisfy explanation, you will down and get confused.
You pretend to ignore it ..
But it always come.
What your read...,
What you saw...,
What you hear is different from what you face.. they can make you feel crumble.

The end of the day..
You will miss the one who didn't miss you. (i guess)
The one who make you cry is also the one who can stop you from crying..

Your snoring is actually entertain my dream. . And i miss it.
The hello kiss and the hug-see-you-again is absolutely fascinating me. 
The clumsy you had, really make my day.
Every word you said to me is like winds blow my face.. 
When you said "sayang baby sangat",  i'm feel like i'm so beauty and you spit it gracefully...

I can't stop looking at you.
Such a waste when i can meet you but i didn't look at you all the time.

And now, I wish you were here ..
(to said I'm sorry and i miss you soo..)

Friday, November 4, 2011

Whatever i says ...

"I'm crying each time i notice how you changed the situation,
You confused me with you Mighty-true-fact ability to convince me; that you are not guilty at all.
All unfaithful..
All lies..
Why its become my fault ?"

"I wish my ex is just like your ex. 
Keep searching you..
Try to ask little hope there..
Never ever give up on you.
Then you will know how i feels.."

"Falling in love doesn't happen just once. 
Every time you hear their voice after not hearing it for a week. 
Every time you see that smile brightens the room. 
Every time they make you laugh when you don't even want to smile.
 Every kiss hello and see-you-later hug. 
That's when you fall in love; not once, but everyday.
That what i feel for you..."

"if you love someone, 
Don't ask what he can do for you.
Ask yourself, what you can do for him.
If you keep be his burden.. Walk slowly before he run leaving you"

"If you still care about your past,
Go and repeat it before it too far and too late.
If you doesn't care so much about you present,
Is not too late to stop and create another future with your past.
Because history is key to present and future;
its not impossible history can repeat itself"

"I'm no one compare you ex...  
No i'm not.
I can see how much you want to take care her feeling rather than me."

"Heartless is my second name.
Selfish is my nickname.
Mean is my commercial name.
Bitch from the hell ? 
I like that name too, but it too long to pronounce.
Don't forget my name, its CRUEL."