I navigate myself to Missing You

It so annoying to have a flu, cough and fever at a time.

I want to tell my mom, but I don't like she will be worried too much.

But it still okay if your close friend still ask you kinda question like this :

"kau tak sihat ke Ej ?" -Thanks Lyka. I love you as big as my tummy size it is ;)

I'm truly admit, when I don't have any kind of fever, the equation goes like this

 (Me = Hot temper + ego)

When i'm with any kind of fever, the equation be like this

(Me = pampering myself with temper + too ego to digest with) 

Bad huh ?

Don't tell. I know.

So here, I'm sorry for being dick head at anyone.

That not me, that was me actually. 

Again, SORRY.

Nobody can't handle it.

I know.

Nobody deserve me when i'm have it.

I know.

Even I, me and myself can't accept that.

I know.

End with that.

I'm always forget what a good thing I've done.

Either i'm not doing nothing or just it actually nothing if i remember.  

I'm kinda fail to talk with someone who always keep tracking what a good thing they have done and ofkos, they keep reminds me.

I do remember it, but i don't like anyone reminds it for me.

Because ;

I feel so down and shame with myself when you reminds me.

I feel like a loser when you reminds me.

I feel give up to stay with you when you keep reminds me.

I feel i don't deserve you for what you've done.

I feel so down for what i can't make it for you.

Sometimes, when you don't get satisfy explanation, you will down and get confused.

You pretend to ignore it ..

But it always come.

What your read...,

What you saw...,

What you hear is different from what you face.. they can make you feel crumble.

But,

The end of the day..

You will miss the one who didn't miss you. (i guess)

The one who make you cry is also the one who can stop you from crying..

Your snoring is actually entertain my dream. . And i miss it.

The hello kiss and the hug-see-you-again is absolutely fascinating me. 

The clumsy you had, really make my day.

Every word you said to me is like winds blow my face.. 

When you said "sayang baby sangat",  i'm feel like i'm so beauty and you spit it gracefully...

I can't stop looking at you.

Such a waste when i can meet you but i didn't look at you all the time.

And now, I wish you were here ..

(to said I'm sorry and i miss you soo..)

Whatever i says ...

"I'm crying each time i notice how you changed the situation,

You confused me with you Mighty-true-fact ability to convince me; that you are not guilty at all.

All unfaithful..

All lies..

Why its become my fault ?"

"I wish my ex is just like your ex. 
Keep searching you..
Try to ask little hope there..
Never ever give up on you.
Then you will know how i feels.."

"Falling in love doesn't happen just once. 

Every time you hear their voice after not hearing it for a week. 

Every time you see that smile brightens the room. 

Every time they make you laugh when you don't even want to smile.

 Every kiss hello and see-you-later hug. 

That's when you fall in love; not once, but everyday.
That what i feel for you..."

"if you love someone, 

Don't ask what he can do for you.

Ask yourself, what you can do for him.

If you keep be his burden.. Walk slowly before he run leaving you"

"If you still care about your past,

Go and repeat it before it too far and too late.

If you doesn't care so much about you present,

Is not too late to stop and create another future with your past.

Because history is key to present and future;

 and 

its not impossible history can repeat itself"

"I'm no one compare you ex...  

Wrong?

No i'm not.

I can see how much you want to take care her feeling rather than me."

"Heartless is my second name.

Selfish is my nickname.

Mean is my commercial name.

Bitch from the hell ? 

I like that name too, but it too long to pronounce.

Just,

Don't forget my name, its CRUEL."

Big Hair is Awesome !

my GOAL is to have this BIG and LONG HAIR  !

Huh ? Rambut besar ke ? Kepala besar or besar kepala ?

Salah salah. Big hair style. Serius classsss giler.
Tapi kat Malaysia niyh tak seswai rambut ala ala macam niyh sebab :

1. Faktor saiz badan
- Asia kan genit genit. Cecomel gitu. Tibe tibe ada rambut style giniyh memang nampak kepala yang besar and badan kecik. Macam tak balance and macam tak seswaiiiii sangat. Its still seswai just tak seswai sangat. OK?

Badan sama besar dengan kepala. kan kan ?

2. Sebab takot huduh
- Perahsantan(perasan) tak kalau Shakira shakira ke, Ay ay Beyonce ke, Taylor Suzuki Swift or even my feveret shemale Megan Fox sangat gojes giler dengan rambut besar besar diorang. .? Why ? Sebab diorang born with beauty. Letak tahi atas kepala pon maybe lah still nampak cantik. keh keh.
But kita cucu cicit parameswara (if you Melaka lah) seswai rambut biasa, kemas and rapi.
Kalau muke sangat Melayu nak buat jugak big hair, cantik memang cantik tapi nak sebut lain sikit lah, jadi CANTAIK. Haaaaa~

Gojes rite ?

3. Kedai mana yang ade provide service "Big Hair style?"
- Mungkin lah kedai tayar menyediakan gelung sebesar tayar untuk di gulung bersama sama rambut dan menghasilkan big hair. Salon biasa takde gulung besar tayar. Sekian.

4. Salah style
- Ada some yang cantik if apply, ada yang kelakar and totally Melayu NEVER. EVER. CAN NOT. TAK BOLEH BUAT.
See ? betapa tak boleh nya . Contoh macam :

This is REALLY BIG HAIR ;P

So, don't try ikut suke hati mak ayah. Nanti jadi Big Hair versi Kak Limah.

5. Be yourself, you, kaulah, kamu dan engkau ! 

- Ok, lately niyh memang suke sangat sangat curl curl kan rambut sebab rambut dah agak panjang. Sebab curl yang bervolume besar seswai rambut panjang melepasi dada. Dan memang hobi baru iaitu saje saje gertak my beloved Am yang konon konon nak potong rambut (padahal dia tak tahu betapa aku bercinta simpan rambut panjang niyh) Haha ! So En. Ahmad Edham, saya tak akan potong rambut unless awak nak tukar dengan Toyota Vios Puteh. 

(tibe tibe teringat contract tak bukak fesbuk dapat Toyata Vios. kuikui )

Blonde Big Hair ~

The color and volume just so in ...!

Just nak share minat yang recently asyik masuk dalam kepala. Tata ! 

YOU & me either

Girl : Define "ikhlas?"

Boy : errr... Tak tahu. Buat dengan rela kot ?

Girl : Tahun lepas awak pernah hantar saya balik kampung kan, 

walau awak baru balik dari kerja malam.

Awak ingat ?

Boy : Yang mana satu enh.. Hurmm. Ingat ingat lupa lah. kenape ?

Girl : So that the meaning of ikhlas, You never remember what a good thing you have done.

Only people will appreciate that. Not you.. not you valued your thing by yourself. 

Boy : But i marah kat you time tu kot. You tahu kan i baru balik kerja malam, 

tak tido lagi.., kena hantar you pulak. Haishh.

Girls : Be my hero.
Who always save me from critical situation. 

Save me from danger.

 But never sacrifice you punya nyawa because of me. 

Sebab you nyawa I.

 Yang Dia pinjam kan untuk I sebagai tempat bergantung, berteduh dan berharap.

Boleh ?

Boy : ....................

"Life trains my younger years to betrayed."

"Yell the farewell, go trouble younger hearts"

"Don't you think you and I 

is a loving enemy

and 

mortal foe to rest ?"

"I am A quenchless fire, 

The warm i brought will never comfort you."

"The course of true love never did run smooth"


"Since you will be true,
You shall be true to them who're false to you"

"Run run farewell false love,

We are the oracle of lies, 

God no bless to us "

Must I, who came to travel through you,

Grow your fixed subject, because you are TRUE ?

Dear Karma

Earney Atyesha
No. 16 Jalan Febuary
Kg Dalam Hati Ada Taman
72720 Ulu Hati

Pedih Please Be Aman.

Executive Karma is Not a Bitch
JKK, Jalan Kaki Ke
Lost Angles nofound
098123 Devil is Everywhere.                                               08 September 2011

Miss Beautiful  Karma,

REQUEST TO BE NICE IN THE NEXT NEXT MY LIFE 

                  According to the title, I, myself and me Earney Atyesha with humble requesting or begging you to be nice in the next next my life. Here I put the reason why you should grant my wish. Before i'm going too far, pardon me if my English is absolutely annoying like hell. Currently i'm totally Malay who speak Malay and eat sambal belacan everyday. So that why i got annoying grammar like what the hell sambal belacan smell.

2. Miss Beautiful Karma, i do understand why you keep chasing me lately. Equally understand. But, did you have to do that ? For your information, I'M HUMAN. Don't believe me? Ohh, that mammalia fact is also true but my real species is Human. People. Person. Ain't you ever heard about "People make mistake?" Yes yes, that my species always did. Not cool huh ? Yes we are.

So i'm truly, really sorry for what i did. For what I've done. For whatever i do with or without i realize.

Trillion, billion, gazillion sorry and i'm really really beg an apologize for that. Again, I'm so sorry.

3. I can absolutely guarantee you that i'm totally regret for what i did. For those who really care and love me so much. Or for whoever i didn't mean to hurt before. This guilty feeling is now be my shadow who always lepaking with me wherever i be. Could you please ask you employee, (i guess) to stop chasing me? 

And i know you sent me your SAKA right? Saka tak tahu ? Alahhh... Let me explain how saka works here.

Saka is the one who ruined your peacefulness, happiness, calmness or maybe it could be a nurse who turn to Saka. (ok, that just an addition for nitemare story. I just watch Suster Ngensot last month and got infection by that)

4. The Saka you sent to me do a really great great job. I can't even breath happiness with my new life. Everyday i fight with him. Even for little thing. Unnecessary thing. Tedious thing. And now, thanks to you I already broke up with him. (but still have a chance, perhaps) Aigoo. 

Look here Miss Beautiful Karma, i was changed. I want to be a new one. Who didn't repeat a past mistake. Even i can feel numb if i remember about that. Just thinking about that, i can feel numb immediately. Could you imagine how regret i am? 

5. So, everybody make mistake. Everybody learn from mistake. Humanize grow with experience. Experience teach me how to be nice in your next action. Experience could be your biggest mistake and the biggest lesson in your life.

I can change. And i want to change. If i say "I can be loyal" then trust me and take my words. 

If i say "I only love you" yes, i do mean it. Could you please Karma, don't take everything..every single thing in my life? My present and my future ? Or don't give me a double payback cheques for what i did ? I know you loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to do that. Dats what people entitle you. Aite?

Last. I know.. i'm going too far. Over or watsoever. Sorry then. I hope to hear from you soon.Hopefully you grant my only wish. And one thing, give him back to me!  ;(  Opss. Thank you so much. Muah muah.

Trulymadwithyou,