TRUE FACTS #2

Omaigosh #2

Kini kau tiada

Senafas pun ku perlu mencoba

Kau bawa pergi sebahagian dari jiwa raga

Bersendiri hidup umpama hilang erti

Bagaimanakah meneruskan hayat ini

Andai ku bercinta lagi suatu hari nanti

Tunjukkan di mana

Ruang hati untuknya yang masih belum kau huni?

Apabila tiba waktu bersemuka

Ku perlu pejamkan mata dan memaksa lafaz cinta

Dengan bayangmu di minda

Tiada pengganti bisa hadir dan mampu menyembuh

Rawan di hati meleraikan semangat ku runtuh

Bersendiri masa umpama tak beralih

Berapa lama lagi harus ku merintih

Andai ku bercinta lagi suatu hari nanti

Tunjukkan di mana

Ruang hati untuknya yang masih belum kau huni?

Apabila tiba waktu bersemuka

Ku perlu pejamkan mata dan memaksa lafaz cinta

Dengan bayangmu di minda

Malam tidak berpurnama

Fajar tiada kejora

Aku hilang di dalam gelita kalbu

Tanpa dirimu asaku mati

I heard this song is from TV3, cerita ape entah. Tiga hari cuti kerja sebab tak sihat.. So layan je lah tv kat rumah. Mula mula tak amik port lagu niyh, tapi bila dengar dalam kereta.. dalam angin aircond sepoi sepoi bahasa..jadi best pulak. Huhu.

So, How do you understand this songs ?

1. Kalau kita nak sewa rumah, tapi rumah tu dulu ada barang barang penyewa dulu tak amik, so boleh duduk kat ruang tamu je lah. Kat mana ade kosong.

 Eh ?

2. Tuan rumah, yang ada rumah available untuk di sewa. Tapi dalam rumah tu banyak barang, so dia kena tunjuk kan kat mana ade ruang lagi untuk di sewa. 

Which one is better.. never mind. I love both. ok, Thanks.. B)

Don't Stop Whats Make U Happy

The last entry i wrote about i'm going either to stop blogging or take a break.
You know what? None of them i will do!

Why you (of course i'm talking to my self and you) want to stop do sumthing that you like sooo much because sumone trying to blocking your smile ?

Efghijklmn!

Biasalah, kalau time kita rase down, buat ape pun rase takde semangat... Dengar lagu sedih, rase diri pathetic nyer life haku niyh. Haish haish.

Benda benda camniyh, semua amik mase untuk back to normal mood. Kan ?
So anyone yang ada rase down because of sumone or sumthin, SUMTHIN?
Yeah, eh.. bukan orang putus cinta jer rase down. Kalau ada hal lagi penting selain hal hal ni terjadi ?
Pun rase down kan.. So chill lah. God must have good reason  why He put u into this. Have a little patience then.
If you want to allow wounds transform you into sumone you are not, dats means.. you are LOSER.
Time will show you the way...you should believe and take.

In life, you will deal with 1001 things and things and things.. Just don't let yourself drowns on it.
Take care then.. Tata~ 

STOP or TAKE A BREAK

Hey guys,
I didn't know how many of you read my blog or maybe no one ever read it.
Ah-ha XD
So i just want to do an little update.
Maybe would be the last entry and update..
Maybe just maybe.

I love blogging so much.. it some kind of relieve.
I love to see my loveleyh banner of my blog.
My Atyesha name on it.
I'm feel like i'm talking to someone when i was typing.
Usually, when i'm sad.. yes it would be 1 entry pay for that sad.

But..recently i had so many unpleasant things happen in my life.
And of course.. i didn't like it.
I even don't want to think about it.

Oh ya.. i only had blog and you tube account. I do have Twitter but the password ? Yeah.. you better guess. I totally forget it..and i don't like tweeting actually.
Never thought about it.
Facebook? The 1st letter of  F really  F my life.  From the beginning until now.
I hate Facebook more than you hate your ex gf/bf. Haha.

So..for those who sometimes read my blog..
I'M SO SORRY...
I will take a break a while or maybe I will stop by now.
I really can't describe what kind of disappointment i had to face lately..
(shed my tears rite now)
It's not about i'm losing someone I love but its about..something more to me.
I'm losing myself... I feel defeated.

This feeling i used to be before.. When the first time my mom read my diary, (my age like 12 or something) then until now I never trust anyone. I know.. my mom have a right to read my diary..but it is just i don't like.
Then i'm crying that time to ask my mom stop reading my diary. Even nothing inside my diary.. its just a full variation of handwriting of my name..
No dark secret. No cursing.
How can i describe the feeling of sumthing that u don't want anyone trespassing on it?
Have u feel it ?

Ok, until then..
Have a great great great of take care..
If you are getting into exam or test or something with it, wish u  a very best of luck!

Bye bye~
Lovely, Atyesha.

Should and Should not.

Everytime i told sumone i want to diet or to be a little slim, she/he give a respond  like this :

Persona 1 : "ah haa.. you should diet? On this body ? Omaigosh, you are already skinny.. don u think so ?"

Persona 2 : "Eh.. lebih lah you.. dah kurus.. nak kurus lagii..."

Persona 3 : "Badan you dah smart lah. nanti kurus, dah tak lawa."

Yeah meh ? Really ?

1st of all. Thank you for that caring. So much caring there. Thank you.
But honestly, did you know what i'm really really really want for myself ?
Nah. You don't.

Should i used AKU. SAYA. atau I here?
Ok watever. I used all of  'em.

In order to get things clear here, let me show u some picture. Ok ?

Our secret on diet ?
Oh that...is..
We didn't eat for couple years maybe. xD

Obviously, i don't want to be like them. They are SUPER SKINNY not SLIM at all.
I used to be 45kg before. In semester 3.
Currently my weight is 52kg.
See ? I put too much weight with my height is only about 159-160 cm.

Or maybe.. I'm the only one who getting paranoid with my weight since i used to be fat before. That time my weight is 58kg-60kg with less cm on me.. Nah.. I didn't lie. Its true. See my previous entry. I put my picture there with my extra fat on that's photo.

So, WHAT I REALLY WANT ?
(ok penat cakap manglish, cakap ke? Taip lah)

Ok, semua orang ade seluar or baju yang korang memang nak pakai. Pakaian idaman lah katakan..
Tapi.. bila korang pakai.. nampak macam clown. Sebab, ur body-figure that time doesn't fit that outfit requirements. Got it?

For example, i want to wear skinny jeans.. Tapi peha macam drumstick. So bila pakai tak nampak skinny wear, tapi nampak curve denim (sekarang semua seluar jeans is curve denim) Errrr...

Tapi bukan lah saya nak kurus sebab nak pakai ketat ketat. #mentang mentang bagi contoh skinny jeans.
Motif sebenar ialah, NAK MUAT PAKAI BALIK SELUAR DULU.
Membazir kan hampir setiap hujung tahun kena beli seluar baru. Sebab ape?
Sebab lemak kat peha.. kat perut dah bertambah.
Dulu boleh pakai 26-27.
Sekarang ? 28-29-30.
Cehhh.. Sedih tahu ?

Seriously, you paranoid macam gambar kat atas ke?
Wait wait wait.. kalau korang pandang cermin nampak macam niyh, cepat cepat pergi tumbuk cermin tu. Lepas tu, tumbuk diri sendiri dengan yakin 4 kali.
Haish.

This is YOU SHOULD NOT DO.
Macam yang I pernah cakap dulu, kita try as best kita boleh jadi.
Ingat?

Semua kita buat mestilah sangat sangat realistik, effort yang bombastic and fantastic baby, bom sha ka laka. (tiba tiba lagu Big Bang masuk)

Tak de sape suruh you, diet sampai KURUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS macam tu.
And if you still warasssssss, takde sape nak jadi sekurusssssssss itu. Tak lawa langssssssung. Pon ada banyak SSSSSSS kan? (ade care line ape dengan banyak SSSSSS?)

Korang ade ke diet sampai makan pon bersekat sekat ?

Sampai tak makan 8 hari 8 malam ?

Ok, ape yang saya maksudkan nak diet ialah..

Sebelum niyh, saya sangat suke makan betul betul dah lapar baru makan.

Then sekali makan tu, booomm! Nasi tinggi macam bukit. 

So tak bagus kan macam niyh ?

Rasa nak makan eskrem, layan kan aje..

Makam coklat ber bar bar bartender lagi.

Makan KFC each time breakfast. (wah, kaya?) Haha!

Minum air bekarbonat macam air suam.

Balik kerja malam, makan berpinggan pinggan, lepastu.. krohh krooohh....TIDO!

So the meaning of my diet. Go healthy.

Ade lah pergi gym.. tapi saje hangat hangat ketahian ayam.

Sebab ?

Penat sebab kerja. Kekangan masa dan juga kenipisan izin dari seorang orang.

Hehehehehheheheeee.... (alasan alasan alasan each time nak get tone and slim)

Biasalah..

"WOMEN DIET ALWAYS START TOMORROW"

Sekarang niyh, saje makan ikut time.

Rase perlu makan sebelum kerja. Then makan dulu. Makan lepas tu ade gerak gerak, buat kerja..atleast.. ade lah jugak lemak terbakar. 

Sampai masa lunch, so go to lunch.

Makan pon nasi tak berbukit bukit.

Saje makan sampai rase dah. (macam mane sampai rase dah?)

Dah means bukan sangat kenyang. Makan sampai mata pon rase mengantuk.

Satu lagi, saya jarang  nak makan malam sebab saya dah makan sepuas nya di siang hari.

Cuba lah elak makan dengan havoc selepas pukul 8 malam. 

Kita boleh kan ubah sikit sikit.

Pilih makanan yang kuah dia bukan kuah minyak.

Ada masa and kesempatan, pergi jer teman member member gie gym.

Seminggu sekali dua pon dah ok. Even sekali dua tu 4 jam pon tak sampai. Kuikuikui.

Memang lah lambat nampak kesan atleast i want to let everyone know what Diet means in my dictionary.

Ok, thats all i want to share kat you you'oolllls semua. Eeeuw. xD

I don't have nobody nobody but you. Ececeh.

Bye!